2 December 2009

Well, the concert countdown begins. We do two this weekend, then all the xmas stuff. I have decided that I don't enjoy so much of it because I am distressed about being over extended. And so I shall learn to say no. I have already said, only one Christmas Eve service. I think I will pass on a trip to Sewanee for Lessons and Carols this Sunday, and try to get excited about our own which is later in the month. I have a party on the 12th, company, and were it not for my precarious job position at the mo', I think I would blow that off as well, but I think it would be prudent for me to be seen at any and all such functions.

And so I am looking forward to the holdays being over rather than beginning. This just doesn't seem right to me somehow.

I also spent all my excess money lately on car repairs and house repairs and so I have to be very careful in general, not to mention xmas presents.

So, off I go to a choir rehersal tonight, followed by a rehearsal tomorrow and friday night for the chorus concert Saturday. Two concerts I should say. I ought not miss church Sunday, but I am very tempted.

I am learning new things at work, and this has really strung me out. I am not opposed, but it is keeping up with due dates and requests for recommitment and making sure nothing is late. I think I can track the info my way, but the girl teaching me does't think like I do so we are having a time of the lessons. I know she thinks I am an idiot, and I thing she is a bitch, when in reality, we just have different ways of approachng it. But I do need to try to get it, becasue currently I am unable to respond to simple questions like what is the percentage of releases for this week? It has been hard for me to get my arms around this, I am not sure why. Anyway it is stress filled, every day, and I have no sick leave, or vacation, and I can't escape it ayway. And next week they are going to expand it from drawings only to drawings and documents.

whew! I didn't realize just how wound up I was.